Stories That Remain

The first thing people close to me used to ask me when I would tell them I was back with my ex-boyfriend Mathew, was, "What happened to the chef?" What happened to Drew, that's a good question. Drew went on a business trip that got extended and extended some more. The idea was to keep on seeing each other upon his return but destiny had other plans for us. We stopped messaging one another during his travels and without explanation things just ended in the most natural way.

By now time had passed and those months brought wonderful things I had not expected into bloom with Mathew. I hear from Drew here and there by text. With his typical exuberant excitement he lures me into replying, how could I not, his messages are full of humor no one can resist. Which had me thinking one day how I wished I could be friends with him. So I texted him and said, "Once you told me that even if we didn't make it you would want to remain friends. So I am here to cash that coupon." To what he quickly replied, "I would really love that." Drew and I had a bit of an explosive, I like you, I hate you relationship when we dated, mostly from my end and I presume it would have only grown more complex with time. But friendship is different and what was undeniable was that special connection we had. Between us a feeling of knowing each other forever always lured up in the air. It was like being with my long lost friend from pre-k again, the kind that pulls your pony tails and calls you names because he secretly likes you.

He was disappointed it didn't work out for us. "It sucks I was not ready for more." He excused himself recently, "I was still dealing with the aftermath of divorce when we met and had just broken up with my ex-girlfriend." Truth is I wasn't ready either, I still had feelings for Mathew throughout all the time we dated. "Well, now I will just have to admire you from afar." He said "We will always have the memory of the magical day we met." I said. He liked that since he said not very often he feels such a deep connection with someone he just meets. As far as the friendship, who knows if it will flow. Sometimes finding a keen connection with someone gives the illusion it should last forever. Life is teaching me it does not necessarily has to happen that way. Memories that eventually become a story is all that remains and since it was a special one, for now, it's just enough for me.