A New Beating Heart

    Little did I know a yoga pose would give me a new beginning. The restorative yoga class delivered what the instructor promised. Way passed the middle of the class, after two of the most challenging long poses and stretches a curious break through occurred; I released something very much stuck within. During the long held pose as it is practiced in restorative yoga I felt a wave of immense joy inundating me. I was belly up with the cloth boulder under my spine while happiness kept on increasing from within, like a wave of unexplainable excitement without measure. 

    The lights in the studio were dim and my view was a huge window overlooking downtown high rises with a starry dark sky above it. The instructor’s voice kept on buzzing lower and lower, escaping my ears as my mat and I floated away. We reached the tall buildings and zoomed straight to the moon, as I turned around I could see earth far and away. My mat and I had done our duty well, we had spread some love as we took off and that same love was spreading fast until we could see earth pulsating in a pink bubble of hope. I smiled and looked away to the farthest of stars, that is where I want to go, I thought. Just then a voice told me “then release, not with grief, not with anger, let the memories come to you with joy, don’t be afraid.” 

    

A montage of my ex Mathew and I flashed through my mind. Like the many movies we had watched together lying on my living room couch. Except this time I was the main character and I smiled. I lived every single experience again in a wonderful long breath. I smiled, I laughed and I loved. As I did this my mat and I reached the very last star just as I hoped. I got far, it was high and earth was just a tiny pink bubble floating away. 

    As I flew back I started gathering speed, I saw the pink bubble growing bigger. Soon I noticed some other stars were following my lead, love is so contagious they could not help but plunge with me bursting into shooting stars. There was only room for one back on earth though and we all knew it, I sped up with more love, laughter, and joy. They laughed like me with love but I still held the lead. Earth was getting closer and I knew I would be the very first one. As I plunged into earth a new me was born or at least the seed inside of me was planted, It was up to me now to grow my new being and my new beating heart that now was basking in forgiveness like never before.